Hope

The events of Human Kind have left me broken-hearted today.

I don't know if it is that the events hit closer to Heart and Home for me today, or if today my most-often strong constitution was just warn down.  It may be that a few things have hit very close to home, like within the confines of my wee little Family, and just outside to my immediate Family, and even yet to the vicinity of my family on the map.  While others hit close to my heart and the turmoil that rises from its dust is a test of my Sanity, Patience, Strength and Positive Outlook.

It leaves me in worry, upset, and really, to be honest, sad.

Our world is changing, we must change with it. How much will we sacrifice before we realize we have gone too far?  There is so much going on.  I could go on and on about what is happening to the people I love and the struggles we go through in our everyday Lives.  Yet, the Triumphs through those struggles are what should really make us Thrive.


For so many, everything is Black and White, with clear answers for either side.

I am not one of those.  My world is every shade of Grey.  I can see the point from 22 different angles.  I stay silent when most draw opinions on things that I believe are not theirs only to draw a conclusion from.  One, because, they are entitled to their own opinion.  Two, it is a test for me.  To see if I am really getting the idea behind the concepts I so swear by.  Three, and most importantly, to lash out in a negative manner, feeds hate.  It feeds the very thing that creates the issue in the first place. 

I worry that I won't be able to give my daughter all the tools she will needs to stand up in society as it is now, in the state that it is in.  I think of my tools and know that half of them came from going to places in my head where demons, monsters, stress and anxiety live.  I dread the thought of her having to go to that place too to gain the skill set to make her that tough for our society.

How can we teach Love, Compassion, Joy, Kindness, and Helpfulness to our children when the world keeps handing us images of the opposite?  Hope.  As I write the very word, I can already feel the renewing starting.  I know when I wake tomorrow, although I will still be saddened, the Hope will have grown.  And restored enough of me to myself that I can keep believing that maybe one day Hope in Humanity can be restored too. That even if it won't evoke any World Peace, I can maybe try to teach her to find Peace on her own, and give Hope to others as well.

Loss.....

I have a foreboding feeling I cannot shake.  Since my last sorrow-filled entry, I have been witness to another husband taken form his family.  The sweet little girls are so young that the memory of Daddy will have to be something that Mom and all the ones that loved him will have to fill in for them.  So young, too soon.

Others close to me, in these last few weeks, have lost aunts, uncles, grandparents and mothers.  It is a reality that is sometimes hard to face.  I am now approaching an age where death is just as common as new Life.  It makes this tiny little blog mean that much more to me.  I've noticed that in times of Happy and Sad, I have turned to this blog as an outlet.  It has never failed me.  Thank you for that.

I try to help heal bodies all week long.  Life in its purest, most raw form.  Breathing in and breathing out. It is a wonder to me how the human body can support in all different forms, yet how fragile it really is.  What it can hide from the outside world.

Robin Williams left our plane of Living today.  It is said he took his own Life.  Do you know how many Lives that man touched?  How much Brightness he brought to the world.  Yet, he was terribly sad on the inside.  He fought a constant battle internally the world knew nothing about.  All that Light he inside, it was still dimmed by depression.  Where even though he knew who Loved him, his special people still couldn't help him enough to dig him out of it.

I think he was too hard on himself.  I think he demanded things of himself no one on earth could live up to. To what end to we keep holding ourselves to standards that are unattainable? To death? To illness of both mind and body?

This man had kindness and compassion for everyone he met.  But he was unable to give it to himself.  How?

We need to stop being so hard on ourselves.  We need to give our souls compassion and kindness.

And here is where Gratitude plays in....

If you can look out into the World and have Gratitude, it gives back and resonates in your very being.  If at your very core all you want is to Love and Help, that is what you will get in return.  That doesn't mean that Life isn't going to throw you curve balls.  It means that Life is waiting to see how you handle them.

At my very basic belief platform, I have to believe that Grief, Heartache, Pain, and Loss  are trials to Happiness and Gratitude.  These roads are rocky, hard and unrelenting.   They can seem endless.  I can only imagine that the way we get out of them is One Thankful moment to the next, minute to minute, day by day.

~Norma