Funny, I had been in a reflecting mind frame of late. I wonder if my mind subconsciously goes there or if it is indeed the pull of the wheel of the year that innately pulls me there. Time has a way of showing us the path.
The last few weeks have been quite a test for me and my not-so-new-to-me ideals of a positive and Grateful mind frame. I think I am finally getting the hang of it.
I took a nasty fall down the stairs last week, and I am actually healing up quicker than I had thought I would, but slower than I thought I would....if that makes any sense at all.
We couldn't just stop there with excitement, Hubby got sick, really sick....like, not eating for almost two days kind of sick. Yeah, I know...it was making me nervous. The third day I had had it, I finally told him he had to eat! I was terrified it was going to turn into pneumonia. Thank the Goddess for homeopathic care, essential oils, anti-oxidants, and good old fashion sleep have helped him turn the corner.
And the kid had a mean cough.
Yup, my old self would be really upset that I had to work through my body soreness, fight my urge to just lay in bed, and have a moment for me. Not this time. I worked through it, glad that I didn't hurt myself so bad that I couldn't do the things my sick family needed me to do. SO glad I actually took the time off of work and didn't have to juggle that too. Happy to report that everyone is on the mend.
With the little one on vacation, my days are filled with Naenah, and only in the wee hours before bed do I get some quiet time to be with my thoughts. Tonight, they are on the coming year. What our goals will be health-wise, financial/budget-wise, our goals for vacations, Naenah's after school sports that are coming up, taxes, lots of To-Do's on my list....on top of keeping the studio running, the house/animals up to snuff. This is where the old me would complain. The new me?
Well, I'm just Grateful. To have things to worry about, to have things to strive and do my best at. Even if those things seem measly to anyone else, they are mine to do at the utmost best of my ability.
I've seen cracks in the shiny armour of others lately. It has made my heart break for some. Watching all the time, effort and resources used to create a facade. Whether it be to hide something, someone or to embellish a truth to make it greater. I'm so Grateful I've learned the lesson of not trying to show the world anything more than who I am, and being okay with that.
Its a pretty humbling thing to look back on the year and know that it has probably been one of the most satisfying year's of resolutions that I have ever had. Why? Because I went easy on myself, I let up on the pressure of all the preconceived notions of what a resolution should be. And I accomplished more this year than I ever could have thought possible.
So, again, I'm not making any statements of grandeur for New Year's. Other than I hope I accomplish just as much if not more than this year.
Thank you for taking the time out to read this tiny little blog. I wish you and yours a very Happy New Year!
P.S. Thank you 2014, you treated me and mine quite well. Cheers to what 2015 will bring!! <3 br="">3>